My life needs to be about Jesus and people and not about me

That was one of those reminders I needed again. What I do is about people and not about furthering my career. (yes, there are politics, careers and the strive for more in ministry. It's a truth I don't really like, but have to deal with)


For me it always gets back to finding my identity in Jesus, rather in what I do or who people perceive I am. 
Meetings don't make me more important. Meetings (oftentimes) just take me away from hanging out with people who need to hear about Jesus or people I could help to grow deeper in Jesus. 


With some of the people I hang out with I am very much aware that it's not so much about what I say, but rather what I do. Do I hang out? Do I care? Do I flip out at them? 


When I truly find my identity in Christ, I know who I am, I know why I am there and I can truly do what I feel God has called me to do. I don't have to worry about the next step, the next opportunity to move forward, the next time someone acknowledges what I'm doing... I can just do it. the Nike way. The Jesus way. He knew who He was and why He was there. He was not worried. I want to be like that. 


Every year God and me sit down and figure out things. Talk about learning curves, setting challenges, and figuring out the way. At least I like to think so. Last year I learned all about self control, patience (help me!), joy and much more. Each day a reminder on my phone helped me to focus on one area I had to work on. It was fun. Sort of. There were 13 different topics. 


This year there are just 2. Finding my identity in Christ and Fear of the Lord. I fear that this might not be the last time I have to learn about these.


You and me God. Together. Let's do this.