Tuesday, February 23, 2010

one of those days....

I just had one of those days... You know, one of those days that are actually really good because of the details in the day...

Today was grocery assistance day. And today Nate showed up. Nate has been a recipient of our food boxes for a while now. he's from this neighborhood, hasn't got a job and desperate for any help he can get. But there's a difference in Nate. He showed up today, because he wanted to give back! For the whole morning he helped putting together the boxes to give out to many of his neighbors.

Dewayne showed up too. He was there to pick up his box, but he had so much hope in his eyes when he told me about the 2 week course he's taking in solar stuff with the hope that he will be able to get a job at the end of the 2 weeks.

Rita showed up too and she demanded to get her box, even though she wasn't on the list. It's one of those things where it's hard to make a decision... it could have been my fault that she wasn't on the list... But she didn't bring her reminder card, the proof that it indeed was my fault. And so many times I have been lied to before that it's hard to just cheerfully say yes.
In the end we were able to give her the box and she actually insisted that she will bring that card by the office tomorrow!

The day continued with more little fun things, like phone calls to people that I haven't talked to in months and they remember me and WANT to help me with a special project.

And then Jesus and me spent time together. At home. Alone. Just him and me. He made me cry! But that's ok. I like him. He's cool!

It's the details that count... The lady of my small group who had an accident ON THE WAY to small group. I saw her car. it looked bad. But she's ok... I'm thankful!

It's all about Jesus. And He likes details. I need to remember that more.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Discouraged...

Lately I've been feeling very discouraged and down about a whole lot of stuff. But like every good Christian I've also been trying to 'just get over it' with a lot of extra prayer and studying.

But 'just getting over it' is not that easy when you get discouraging news about once a day.

yesterday I spent some time with God just pouring out my heart to Him. It was one of those times where I am sure He actually heard me and took me serious. It wasn't just complaining... It was telling my Dad everything that's been going on in my life with no 'Christian filters'.

I still feel a bit discouraged today. I still struggle to see any light in the tunnel.

I know that God heard me.

I know that He cares.

That needs to be enough!

When you're discouraged, what do you do? How do you encourage yourself?